Our Crazy Life

It seems silly to think I would want to look back on the hard times, but without them I know the good wouldn't be quite so sweet. I sit here with my kids enjoying them chasing each other and think about how blessed I am. They are healthy, they are beautiful, they are my everything. They make my horrendous schedule all worth it. It's been over 40 hours since I have last slept. Between my work schedule, school schedule, taking care of my kids, husband and home, sleep is something that is hard to come by these days. I just have to continue to tell myself, I'm almost done and this will all be worth it...right? I look forward to the day when I get to spend time with my husband, more then passing high fives we share now. Most days I have faith and I know that we're doing the best that we can. Other days I'm filled with doubt and despair wondering how I got here, how did I let my life's plan get so shifted to the point I hardly recognize it. That feeling usually leaves as quickly as I've thought it...all I have to do is look at what I have now and without my mistakes and flaws I would not be here. I am definitely fortunate to find most of my mistakes have resulted in blessings.